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threeplusfireIf you want me to interview you--post a comment that simply says, "Interview me." I'll respond with questions for you to take back to your own journal and answer as a post. Of course, they'll be different for each person since this is an interview and not a general survey. At the bottom of your post, after answering the Interviewer's questions, you ask if anyone wants to be interviewed. So it becomes your turn-- in the comments, you ask them any questions you have for them to take back to their journals and answer. And so it becomes the circle. Taken from catelin who got it from anoisblue
1. How do you feel about death now as opposed to a few years ago?
Difficult to say. I am learning to talk about it as an abstract concept and a reality, which was something I certainly wasn't capable of doing a few years ago. I can remember the discussion of death in my Dostoevsky class resulting in a panic attack that had me hanging onto the edge of the table as if it was the only thing in the world. It still frightens me, but I think I have more reason to believe it's not what I fear it will be.
2. Who is the person to whom you most regret not saying something and what would you have said?
I am tempted to say that I really should have asked Alan Rickman for a kiss when he was right there in front of me. Because this is a hard question and I tend to reach for flippant answers.
I most regret never telling Doc that it was his teaching and his friendship that ultimately saved my life that last year of highschool. If Doc had not shown me that I had every right to be what I wanted to be, that I could write damn well, then I never would have lasted through what happened. I regret not thanking him for introducing me to Somerset Maugham, and Left Bank Paris, and for teaching me how to put news stories together, for throwing me into competitions without warning and for bringing me into the secret life of intellectuals, for teaching me how to fight the rules from the inside and not get caught. I regret never telling him he was like a father to me.
3. What is it about Texas that you love the most? What is it about Texas that you hate the most?
The thing I love most about Texas is the feeling I get when I'm driving through the Hill Country, or watching the horizon turn gold and red, seeing the bluebonnets in the spring or summer rain and knowing that this is a place that people came to in order to build new lives.
The thing I hate most about Texas would be the insidious attitudes of ignorance and hostility that have become associated with certain aspects of Southern and Western culture. I also hate that other people assume that everyone from Texas is an ignorant, poorly educated or racist, or a frigging hippie from Austin. I am none of those things, thank you.
4. Do you think you are beautiful?
Sometimes. Usually when swimming or wearing pants. I think I have certain beautiful features, but that overall I am not a great beauty. Sometimes though, something clicks.
5. What surprises you the most about your life these days?
I think it still honestly surprises me to be alive in the first place.
But really, I think it surprises me most to know that I have come so far from who I used to be and that it is possible for me to be happy. I never imagined that there was a life outside of the one I had a few years ago, or that I could live such a life. But here I am, having two summers overseas, trips to New York, better friends than anyone could ask for, and a damn good bookshelf. I'm happy and that surprises me still because I never thought it would be true.
1. How do you feel about death now as opposed to a few years ago?
Difficult to say. I am learning to talk about it as an abstract concept and a reality, which was something I certainly wasn't capable of doing a few years ago. I can remember the discussion of death in my Dostoevsky class resulting in a panic attack that had me hanging onto the edge of the table as if it was the only thing in the world. It still frightens me, but I think I have more reason to believe it's not what I fear it will be.
2. Who is the person to whom you most regret not saying something and what would you have said?
I am tempted to say that I really should have asked Alan Rickman for a kiss when he was right there in front of me. Because this is a hard question and I tend to reach for flippant answers.
I most regret never telling Doc that it was his teaching and his friendship that ultimately saved my life that last year of highschool. If Doc had not shown me that I had every right to be what I wanted to be, that I could write damn well, then I never would have lasted through what happened. I regret not thanking him for introducing me to Somerset Maugham, and Left Bank Paris, and for teaching me how to put news stories together, for throwing me into competitions without warning and for bringing me into the secret life of intellectuals, for teaching me how to fight the rules from the inside and not get caught. I regret never telling him he was like a father to me.
3. What is it about Texas that you love the most? What is it about Texas that you hate the most?
The thing I love most about Texas is the feeling I get when I'm driving through the Hill Country, or watching the horizon turn gold and red, seeing the bluebonnets in the spring or summer rain and knowing that this is a place that people came to in order to build new lives.
The thing I hate most about Texas would be the insidious attitudes of ignorance and hostility that have become associated with certain aspects of Southern and Western culture. I also hate that other people assume that everyone from Texas is an ignorant, poorly educated or racist, or a frigging hippie from Austin. I am none of those things, thank you.
4. Do you think you are beautiful?
Sometimes. Usually when swimming or wearing pants. I think I have certain beautiful features, but that overall I am not a great beauty. Sometimes though, something clicks.
5. What surprises you the most about your life these days?
I think it still honestly surprises me to be alive in the first place.
But really, I think it surprises me most to know that I have come so far from who I used to be and that it is possible for me to be happy. I never imagined that there was a life outside of the one I had a few years ago, or that I could live such a life. But here I am, having two summers overseas, trips to New York, better friends than anyone could ask for, and a damn good bookshelf. I'm happy and that surprises me still because I never thought it would be true.
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Date: 2003-06-03 10:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-06-03 11:09 am (UTC)1. Would you ever consider going into politics?
2. Do you consider yourself a writer with a day job, or a lawyer who writes?
3. What will you miss most about Texas?
4. When you were my age, what did you imagine you would be doing at your age?
5. What makes it all worthwhile for you?