interviews
Jun. 3rd, 2003 11:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireIf you want me to interview you--post a comment that simply says, "Interview me." I'll respond with questions for you to take back to your own journal and answer as a post. Of course, they'll be different for each person since this is an interview and not a general survey. At the bottom of your post, after answering the Interviewer's questions, you ask if anyone wants to be interviewed. So it becomes your turn-- in the comments, you ask them any questions you have for them to take back to their journals and answer. And so it becomes the circle. Taken from catelin who got it from anoisblue
1. How do you feel about death now as opposed to a few years ago?
Difficult to say. I am learning to talk about it as an abstract concept and a reality, which was something I certainly wasn't capable of doing a few years ago. I can remember the discussion of death in my Dostoevsky class resulting in a panic attack that had me hanging onto the edge of the table as if it was the only thing in the world. It still frightens me, but I think I have more reason to believe it's not what I fear it will be.
2. Who is the person to whom you most regret not saying something and what would you have said?
I am tempted to say that I really should have asked Alan Rickman for a kiss when he was right there in front of me. Because this is a hard question and I tend to reach for flippant answers.
I most regret never telling Doc that it was his teaching and his friendship that ultimately saved my life that last year of highschool. If Doc had not shown me that I had every right to be what I wanted to be, that I could write damn well, then I never would have lasted through what happened. I regret not thanking him for introducing me to Somerset Maugham, and Left Bank Paris, and for teaching me how to put news stories together, for throwing me into competitions without warning and for bringing me into the secret life of intellectuals, for teaching me how to fight the rules from the inside and not get caught. I regret never telling him he was like a father to me.
3. What is it about Texas that you love the most? What is it about Texas that you hate the most?
The thing I love most about Texas is the feeling I get when I'm driving through the Hill Country, or watching the horizon turn gold and red, seeing the bluebonnets in the spring or summer rain and knowing that this is a place that people came to in order to build new lives.
The thing I hate most about Texas would be the insidious attitudes of ignorance and hostility that have become associated with certain aspects of Southern and Western culture. I also hate that other people assume that everyone from Texas is an ignorant, poorly educated or racist, or a frigging hippie from Austin. I am none of those things, thank you.
4. Do you think you are beautiful?
Sometimes. Usually when swimming or wearing pants. I think I have certain beautiful features, but that overall I am not a great beauty. Sometimes though, something clicks.
5. What surprises you the most about your life these days?
I think it still honestly surprises me to be alive in the first place.
But really, I think it surprises me most to know that I have come so far from who I used to be and that it is possible for me to be happy. I never imagined that there was a life outside of the one I had a few years ago, or that I could live such a life. But here I am, having two summers overseas, trips to New York, better friends than anyone could ask for, and a damn good bookshelf. I'm happy and that surprises me still because I never thought it would be true.
1. How do you feel about death now as opposed to a few years ago?
Difficult to say. I am learning to talk about it as an abstract concept and a reality, which was something I certainly wasn't capable of doing a few years ago. I can remember the discussion of death in my Dostoevsky class resulting in a panic attack that had me hanging onto the edge of the table as if it was the only thing in the world. It still frightens me, but I think I have more reason to believe it's not what I fear it will be.
2. Who is the person to whom you most regret not saying something and what would you have said?
I am tempted to say that I really should have asked Alan Rickman for a kiss when he was right there in front of me. Because this is a hard question and I tend to reach for flippant answers.
I most regret never telling Doc that it was his teaching and his friendship that ultimately saved my life that last year of highschool. If Doc had not shown me that I had every right to be what I wanted to be, that I could write damn well, then I never would have lasted through what happened. I regret not thanking him for introducing me to Somerset Maugham, and Left Bank Paris, and for teaching me how to put news stories together, for throwing me into competitions without warning and for bringing me into the secret life of intellectuals, for teaching me how to fight the rules from the inside and not get caught. I regret never telling him he was like a father to me.
3. What is it about Texas that you love the most? What is it about Texas that you hate the most?
The thing I love most about Texas is the feeling I get when I'm driving through the Hill Country, or watching the horizon turn gold and red, seeing the bluebonnets in the spring or summer rain and knowing that this is a place that people came to in order to build new lives.
The thing I hate most about Texas would be the insidious attitudes of ignorance and hostility that have become associated with certain aspects of Southern and Western culture. I also hate that other people assume that everyone from Texas is an ignorant, poorly educated or racist, or a frigging hippie from Austin. I am none of those things, thank you.
4. Do you think you are beautiful?
Sometimes. Usually when swimming or wearing pants. I think I have certain beautiful features, but that overall I am not a great beauty. Sometimes though, something clicks.
5. What surprises you the most about your life these days?
I think it still honestly surprises me to be alive in the first place.
But really, I think it surprises me most to know that I have come so far from who I used to be and that it is possible for me to be happy. I never imagined that there was a life outside of the one I had a few years ago, or that I could live such a life. But here I am, having two summers overseas, trips to New York, better friends than anyone could ask for, and a damn good bookshelf. I'm happy and that surprises me still because I never thought it would be true.
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sure thing!
Date: 2003-06-03 11:47 am (UTC)2. Was Interlochen the right choice for you? Do you feel it has prepared you for college?
3. What are you going to study in your first semester or two of college? Have you picked specific classes yet?
4. If you could travel anywhere, where would you like to go this summer?
5. What is your favorite summertime activity?
Re: sure thing!
Date: 2003-06-03 01:59 pm (UTC)2. Going to Interlochen was the best choice I could have made. If I hadn't gone, I would probably be going to some college that I'm not crazy about to major in something I don't really want to do. Socially, it's debatable. I didn't have a "normal" high school experience, and that may be good or bad. I suppose we shall see. It has prepared me for college, particularly artistically but also academically. Even in my academic classes, we had a lot of freedom. The classes were small, but no one forced us to do the reading. So there was a lot of self-discipline involved with living away from home and not having anyone hold my hand.
3. I haven't picked specific classes, but I believe I have to do Music Theory and History and an ensemble of some sort (Choir). I'll see what credits I get from APs. I don't know when I sign up for my classes though. Probably during Orientation Week.
4. Matt is going to Oxford for July summer school, and if I could, I would love to go with him. I've never been to England, and I have this romantic daydream of Matt and I living in a little flat for the month and taking weekend trips to the country.
5. Probably lounging by the pool with a book or magazine and my CD player with a mix CD that a friend has made for me. I'm looking forward to being in Michigan for the summer. For one, it'll be cooler. Second of all, it'll be absolutely beautiful. Third, trips to the dunes with fun people!