feeling sick makes me depressed I suppose

[threeplusfire]

I have spent most of the last day of this year watching the clouds grow steadily more grey and less defined. My desk is at the end of the aisle, by the large plate glass windows. The flag poles are just out there a few feeet away. Someone has hung a Revolutionary War flag just beneath the American flag. All the receptionist knows is that it is supposed to be there but she has no clue why. It's chilly inside and out, as someone apparently turned on the AC instead of the heat today.

My friends are throwing a party, and I really should go. I don't want to go, mostly because I ache and I don't really like this holiday anyhow. The thought of alcohol just intensifies my headache. Days like New Year's Eve and the day before school starts always fill me with dread.

Everyone is leaving work early but me.
I just want to go home.