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threeplusfireI'm having one of those days where I feel so out of sorts and pained that I want to abandon everything I own and drive away.
Hopefully I can get the pies safely to Bryan. We can leave work in about two hours and run home for things. I'm sure there will be a lot of food this evening. It's weird to me, because Alan's family seems to do everything the day before the actual holiday because it is such a big family I suppose? I don't know. Doing stuff the day before makes it not feel right to me. Alan wants to spend Christmas with his parents and I'm less than thrilled. We went to Bryan last year, and they open all their presents on Christmas Eve! I am sure this is traditional with many families. But it felt wrong, weird and a bit disappointing to be opening presents in the middle of the night on Christmas eve. I missed the fire, the darkness and warmth and smell of pine from my mom's house. I missed waking up with excitement on Christmas morning to eat candy and drink good coffee and unwrap presents so the cats can play with the paper and ribbons. in my mind, that is how Christmas works. I understand why he thinks we need to be there, because of his grandfather's death. But there's also the fact that my grandparents are coming to Texas for the holidays and my grandmother has been very ill this year. I want to see them, and spend as much time as I possibly can with them. I've had a difficult year, and I really want my traditional Christmas. I can deal with giving up Thanksgiving because that was never a big holiday in my family to start with. My father inevitably disappeared to hunt, and my mother was not always inspired to cook.
I really don't want to be around people right now. Everything aches. I'm in pain and I feel like I am coming down with some illness.
Hopefully I can get the pies safely to Bryan. We can leave work in about two hours and run home for things. I'm sure there will be a lot of food this evening. It's weird to me, because Alan's family seems to do everything the day before the actual holiday because it is such a big family I suppose? I don't know. Doing stuff the day before makes it not feel right to me. Alan wants to spend Christmas with his parents and I'm less than thrilled. We went to Bryan last year, and they open all their presents on Christmas Eve! I am sure this is traditional with many families. But it felt wrong, weird and a bit disappointing to be opening presents in the middle of the night on Christmas eve. I missed the fire, the darkness and warmth and smell of pine from my mom's house. I missed waking up with excitement on Christmas morning to eat candy and drink good coffee and unwrap presents so the cats can play with the paper and ribbons. in my mind, that is how Christmas works. I understand why he thinks we need to be there, because of his grandfather's death. But there's also the fact that my grandparents are coming to Texas for the holidays and my grandmother has been very ill this year. I want to see them, and spend as much time as I possibly can with them. I've had a difficult year, and I really want my traditional Christmas. I can deal with giving up Thanksgiving because that was never a big holiday in my family to start with. My father inevitably disappeared to hunt, and my mother was not always inspired to cook.
I really don't want to be around people right now. Everything aches. I'm in pain and I feel like I am coming down with some illness.
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Date: 2004-11-24 12:32 pm (UTC)now ignore them: It really is your turn to be at your mom's this year. especially if your grandparents are going to be there and your gramma is sick. i'm sure alan will understand that it's more important to celebrate with people in life...isn't that what christmas is all about? new life? oh, yes, that and seeing kitties play with ribbon.
dan's family has priority on thanksgiving because they are close and we are able to make that trip more easily. as for christmas- i'm completely selfish, i like being home! thankfully i have a few things working for me-- my parents like me to be hom e and help me get there (yes, i'm 26 and still mooch flyer miles from my pop) and dan's parents don't even invite us. basically they don't express any desire to see us until they find out we've been hanging out with my famliy. then dan's mother gets hurt and upset.
urgh- families. you ARE considering alan, which makes you a good wife. but be with your family this year. it's important! i just had a flash of the last christmas with my grampa. i *hate* playing the piano in front of people but that year i played carols and my grampa sang-- well everyone did, but me and grampa the most. we have pictures, and i think my uncle has a video. it was a really important time for my family and it made my mother happy beyond measure cause she knew her dad was really sick and we were all together singing. she talked about how much my gramma loved it for about 6 months.
one last thing- re: safe pie travel. you probably don't want to brave target right now but they have these nifty contraptions that are called "pie keepers" or something- it's rubbermaid. i'm trying mine for the first time tomorrow. i'll let you know.
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Date: 2004-11-24 12:47 pm (UTC)My brother-in-law's family is coming over this year and I'm afraid they'll ruin everything.
I hope you get your Christmas, we all could use a bit this year.
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Date: 2004-11-24 03:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-11-24 04:28 pm (UTC)but it is your turn and like your friend said, i don't remember her name, it is more important to celebrate with the living.
also about the pies if you have a tupperware big enough turn it upside down put the pie on the top and put the tupperware over it and pack the pie in the floor of the back seat so it doesn't move around much. that is just an idea.
i hope you have a nice thanksgiving.