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Dec. 27th, 2004 08:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireI've been emailing my resume out and getting those autoreply messages from various companies. But I had a small glimmer of hope and I dare not write about it more lest I jinx it.
Today was a horrible day, alleviated in bits and pieces. I had horrible dreams about my mother dying and having to go through her things. It was so wrenching and realistic that I laid in bed for an hour after the alarm went off, holding back tears.
Work was the usual grind. Happily Bryan got a good job a few minutes away from his house, so his life is looking better. The night shift officially disappears next week. So many people are leaving.
We have warm water once again, thank god.
I drank two whisky sours at the hotel when we visited Alan's parents, which gave me a false sense of security and cheer. Joan and Edward are taking a mini vacation to the city to relax and do nothing away from home. They needed it, certainly.
I called and got numbers for new doctors. Slow steps.
It's been one of those days where I doubt everything about my life and I am filled with the overwhelming urge to change my name and run far, far away. But I got my click and ship from the Lab, so a box of nice smelling things will be here soon.
Today was a horrible day, alleviated in bits and pieces. I had horrible dreams about my mother dying and having to go through her things. It was so wrenching and realistic that I laid in bed for an hour after the alarm went off, holding back tears.
Work was the usual grind. Happily Bryan got a good job a few minutes away from his house, so his life is looking better. The night shift officially disappears next week. So many people are leaving.
We have warm water once again, thank god.
I drank two whisky sours at the hotel when we visited Alan's parents, which gave me a false sense of security and cheer. Joan and Edward are taking a mini vacation to the city to relax and do nothing away from home. They needed it, certainly.
I called and got numbers for new doctors. Slow steps.
It's been one of those days where I doubt everything about my life and I am filled with the overwhelming urge to change my name and run far, far away. But I got my click and ship from the Lab, so a box of nice smelling things will be here soon.