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[threeplusfire]

A friend of mine said some things this weekend that were very painful but needed to be said. Perhaps now that it is all out in the open she and I can deal with it.

Sometimes I wonder if I should have friends. So much of me is mutable and shifting. Every year I feel like a different person, and I'm always catching people at different points in the wave. I wonder sometimes if people resent me for the changeable part of my nature, the way I run hot and cold. I am frequently a bad friend, and lately I have been worse than usual.

On that note, if you're waiting for the opportunity to say something, go ahead. I did a lot of my crying last night already.

My cat is overweight. The vet gave me special food and a meal management plan for poor Tsar Slate. I got him a new feather toy to make up for the indignity of being prodded.

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[jonqui.livejournal.com]

"Lives wind themselves out. When they come together, it is something beautiful." paraphrased from Illuminata

I've never really been able to look at anyone and honestly expect them to be a signifigant part of my life forever. Maybe it's only because I've never had really close friends stay in my life for more than several years at a time, though there's not a one I've forgotten and there are several I wish were still an active part of my life.
Life is progress. Or atleast it should be. As you live, you grow and change. It is ridiculous to expect everyone who once fit into your life to always fit.

That being said, it's been a while...What are you doing Wednesday? This weekend?

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I don't know what I'm up to next weekend. I work on Saturday but that is about it. I would love to play ome cards.

[jonqui.livejournal.com]

I'm down with cards. Give me a call...or I'll call you.
Also, I'm making plans for tomorrow night (my birthday). I'm thinking Trudy's then the Draught House...or maybe just Trudy's. I know it's during the week, but you're welcome to come.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Cool! I will try to make it out. I am so bad about week days cause work tires me out. Let me know when and where.

[baseproduct.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I wonder if I should have friends. So much of me is mutable and shifting. Every year I feel like a different person, and I'm always catching people at different points in the wave. I wonder sometimes if people resent me for the changeable part of my nature, the way I run hot and cold. I am frequently a bad friend, and lately I have been worse than usual.


I don't quite know how to respond to this, but for what it's worth, you were never a bad friend to me. You change because you're alive, always a product of your environment. It's not a weakness. No matter what changes, you're still who you are at the core.

I always enjoyed being your friend, because I was in good company. You have the most amazing collection of people on your side- I remember once thinking of "us" as a collection of jewels that wouldn't have shone as brightly without the setting. I was probably drunk, but I don't think it changes the validity at all. ;)

In the spirit of the day, though, I'll take a shot at you: you never made enough food on food day! It was always gone by the time I got over to steal some.

The vet gave me special food and a meal management plan for poor Tsar Slate.

I hope it helps! That poor cat is as big as a whale.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I remembe rus being excetionally witty when drinking, especially with dice involved. :D

Thanks Brett. I am glad you are my friend.