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[threeplusfire]

I went to Texpresso, and Tyler did not show. Silly me, I forgot my phone and now it is too late to call him to figure out if we had our times and places crossed.

I ran into someone I knew from work, and talked with a stranger for a bit. I think she is a new friend. We laughed about tram inspectors and drinking overseas a lot.

Too late, too much coffee and now I think I need a shower. The past several days have been exhausting in the process of thinking, reshaping my mental landscape and evaluating my life. I feel like such a fuckign bastard in some respects and I'm so angry about some other things. I live with this constant feeling that I'm not measuring up to the expectations of other people. In some ways I really have failed and made some shitty mistakes. I have been a bastard to someone who truly didn't deserve that treatment, and I still don't know how to apologize.

I'm also dealing with some other things, and a lot of anger because I feel like I have to justify some of my choices to everyone and kingdom come.

Alan and I are trying to make our cat lose weight. How sad is that? the cat is trying to trick us into more food. Le sigh.

Comments

[alainn-sorcha.livejournal.com]

The only person to whom you have to justify anything is yourself.

Coffee soon.

[frostwalrus.livejournal.com]

MY MOST PROFOUND APOLOGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am soooo sorry, I completely forgot, no excuses, no BS, just plain forgot. Next time we meet you get one free punch in my kidneys.

[schmidtybooger.livejournal.com]

Oh sweets, I feel for you. It's tough when you're trying to do what's right for you and yet you feel that justification is needed for other people. It's crap I tell you, total crap.
As for the fatty kitty I can't help ya there. My pigs are huge and show no signs of shrinking. I swear they raid the fridge when I'm at work. Devious creatures.