I'm covered in bees

[threeplusfire]

Last night Alan made tortellini with shrimps in this tomato garlic ancho sauce. Very tasty, with a nice bit of heat. The most satisfying meal of my week, certainly.

It's been at least two months since I ate any fast food, and a week since I had a cigarette. Very dull, to chronicle my life that way. I think it would feel more worthwhile if there was any benefit detected. I still maintain not smoking is profoundly boring for me.

There is a giant swarming mass of bees on a building across the sidewalk from us. When I came home Friday night I thought someone was dead, with all the yellow tape up in the courtyard. But no, it's just for the giant cloud of bees. They are so loud, and it's really rather creepy. I don't know why they are all gathered up right there. I'm a little worried they are the evil kind of bees.

Right now, I really want to get some migas. But that means leaving the house and there are bees out there.

The Carnaval Noir series is up, and I'm tempted to order more BPAL. I'm trying to restrain myself to just one or two. Maybe House of Mirrors and Medicine Show. Snake Charmer sounds good, but coconut never works on my skin.

I am filled with a vague diquiet and a sense of longing. Old ghosts, I think. I feel something of his sense of loss today.

Comments

[jonqui.livejournal.com]

Not smoking is supremely boring. I think I might have quite sooner (rather, might have been more successful in previous attempts to quit) if it weren't for the time spent waiting for the bus. What else is there to do except be anxious that the bus will never come, and i'll be late for class, and miss a quiz or something, and bad things will happen. Smoking atleast keeps your hands busy.
Unfortunately, my sinuses have been just as bad since i stopped smoking. I was hoping they would have cleared up some...(I think my father said the exact same thing after he quit.)

Are you quitting or just not smoking for a bit to see how it goes?

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I didn't smoke during the time I was throwing up and miserable last weekend. For a day or so afterwards I didn't want anything to eat, much less to smoke. Then I've just been wondering if some horrible physical craving would kick in, so I just didn't smoke to see what would happen. I think I can safely say that whatever addiction I may have is purely psychological and it hadn't been all that hard for me to surmount. Nice to know. Now I'm just trying to decide if I want to smoke again.