boredom

20 years ago (1982) I...
1. moved to Lubbock with my parents and the dogs
2. played outside in the sandbox my father built for me
3. had an enormous bed with a pretty wooden headboard
4. was on my way to reading on my own
5. had blue eyes

15 years ago (1987) I...
1. moved to Austin after living for a year with my grandparents
2. had long brown hair and bangs, and green eyes
3. went to Laurel Mountain Elementary
4. got chastised for coloring "the wrong way"
5. was afraid of my younger sister because she didn't know how to talk properly

10 years ago (1992) I...
1. was obsessed with Guns N Roses
2. rode my bike everywhere
3. had a best friend, Tracy K.
4. had my first period and thought I was bleeding to death
5. went hunting with my father often

5 years ago (1997) I...
1. broke ranks, switched schools and graduated a year early
2. almost died, spent a week in the ICU
3. stopped feeling anything
4. had a boyfriend named Michael who like They Might Be Giants
5. burned all my notebooks and journals

1 year ago (2001) I...
1. got engaged and later ended things
2. got laid off from my ridiculous dot-com and didn't work for half a year
3. went to Prague and was the happiest I've ever been
4. realized I didn't have to be anyone else's girl
5. made some unique and wonderful friends

Yesterday I...
1. went to Czech play rehearsal
2. wandered around with Gene til I had to go to work
3. went through the filthiest stack of books a customer has brought in yet
4. thought about baking still more pies
5. wished it would just rain and be doen with

here i am

Melynda and I are slowly packing things up, cleaning and putting this apartment to rest. I can't wait til we're gone. Soon, soon. She's dying her hair red again, and I'm fiendishly tempted to go buy a new color. Instead I'll play with the camera and make some new icons and photoshop pictures to pieces. I washed all my delicate things in the tub, filling it with soap bubbles and soaked cloth. Everything's drying on the porch and I'm thinking about taking a long, long bath and reading some Skvorecky.