where is the horse and the rider?
Dec. 31st, 2002 05:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
threeplusfireFives times now, and it gets harder each time to remember that I am only sitting in the dark in front of the enormous silvered screen. The shot with Eowyn coming up the steps to the great hall at Edoras, and you can see her legs because she's holding that green dress up to run moves me for some reason I can not fully articulate. Fives times, and every time I weep for it, every single damned time. Perhaps it is the music, and all those people trying to make the right decisions, and the despair of leaving, of dying.
I really don't give a damn what kind of evolutionary throwback it makes me to want a simpler, feudalistic era, with Tolkien's nostalgia and all. I don't remember which review I read made that comment now. But it would rest easier on my heart to know what I believed in, for the answer to be that much clearer for me. Because all I fucking want anymore is to know what I believe and I don't have that answer.
Metro, my Metro at 3am on a Monday night is sparsely populated. But Steve is working, so you know the music will be good, even with all those strange Depeche Mode covers that are oddly entertaining. On the way home I heard a song I used to sing under my breath in my seventh grade math class, after we moved and I was again the unfamiliar strange kid who told stories that were wildly far off what should have been true.
And yes, I am in a mood, and no I really couldn't give you a good reason. Other than this inner voice that seems to affect me very strongly right now, and I'll chalk that up to it being the end of the year. I hate this day, I hate this moment with a passion because it fills me with such unease. I should spend it somewhere loud and full of people I know, but I imagine I will be at home, cleaning and consuming stimulants. Or perhaps I'll just take something so I sleep through it all. But we both hate to sleep, hate the thought we might be missing something, so we wake up early even though there is nothing to do.
I really don't give a damn what kind of evolutionary throwback it makes me to want a simpler, feudalistic era, with Tolkien's nostalgia and all. I don't remember which review I read made that comment now. But it would rest easier on my heart to know what I believed in, for the answer to be that much clearer for me. Because all I fucking want anymore is to know what I believe and I don't have that answer.
Metro, my Metro at 3am on a Monday night is sparsely populated. But Steve is working, so you know the music will be good, even with all those strange Depeche Mode covers that are oddly entertaining. On the way home I heard a song I used to sing under my breath in my seventh grade math class, after we moved and I was again the unfamiliar strange kid who told stories that were wildly far off what should have been true.
And yes, I am in a mood, and no I really couldn't give you a good reason. Other than this inner voice that seems to affect me very strongly right now, and I'll chalk that up to it being the end of the year. I hate this day, I hate this moment with a passion because it fills me with such unease. I should spend it somewhere loud and full of people I know, but I imagine I will be at home, cleaning and consuming stimulants. Or perhaps I'll just take something so I sleep through it all. But we both hate to sleep, hate the thought we might be missing something, so we wake up early even though there is nothing to do.
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Date: 2002-12-31 06:09 am (UTC)"But it would rest easier on my heart to know what I believed in, for the answer to be that much clearer for me. Because all I fucking want anymore is to know what I believe and I don't have that answer."
Yes.
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Date: 2002-12-31 03:01 pm (UTC)But I have to second this opinion. So fucking true.
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Date: 2003-01-01 03:33 pm (UTC)Isn't it brilliant and beautiful? I think this trilogy might be the greatest movie making event of my lifetime.
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Date: 2003-01-01 03:44 pm (UTC)I was blown away. I'm very sensitive to pictures so those pan-outs were just stunning for me. Of course I've read the books too many times to relive what it felt like to read them for the first time, but I think if anything can bring that back, it's these movies. That's saying a lot.
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Date: 2002-12-31 07:36 am (UTC)While structurally the first film is better, both because of its place in the 9 hour epic and because they had to cut less coherency from it (I'm dying for the extended version of this), this is the most emotionally interesting and powerful thing I've seen on the screen maybe ever.
Someone on my friends list has a real hate on for these movies -- all this fantasy taking us away from reality. Aside from matters of reality, and the purpose of art, what does it matter if there are no Hobbits, if in the stories of them their emotions are true?
All of that said, the Aragorn /Legolas thing seems slashier to me each time I see it, to the point of uncontrollable laughter, and in Osilgiath or however you spell it my brain had an awful "kiss little hobbits, kiss!" moment. And I may have it bad for the elves, but I am _not_ one of those hobbit people.
I find it fascinating to see who we gravitate towards.
Date: 2002-12-31 08:13 am (UTC)Has anyone fallen madly in love with the dwarves yet?
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Date: 2002-12-31 09:34 am (UTC)And the 'last march of the Ents' thing _really_ gets me.
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Date: 2002-12-31 10:21 am (UTC)The Ents thing frustrates me because I don't know if people get it -- because they are a bit cartoony, and because the nature of what they are and the thing with the Entwives isn't in there.
It's really about the most tragic film I've ever seen. _Everything_ is dying. And I wonder if one of the many parts of it for me is that my grandmother lives by a burnt out forrest that looks just like the burnt one Arwen wanders through and the hobbits wander through at the end of the movie.
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Date: 2002-12-31 10:27 am (UTC)Of _course_ they didn't in the movie, and I'd have known that if I'd stopped to think a moment.
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Date: 2002-12-31 10:32 am (UTC)And yeah, I mean, let's keep in mind, certain cast members couldn't even get on their horses without cracking ribs. *ahem*
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Date: 2002-12-31 12:43 pm (UTC)Eomer's charge down that slope, and the dawn, makes me sit forward in my seat, and the first time I saw it I bit my lip hard enough to bleed. That whole movie... my eyes are welling up thinking about it right now. But there's so much death, and Theoden's line, "Then I would have them make such an end as to be worthy of rememberance..."
Heh, I had a Hobbit moment too, and oh the wrong. It was so funny. And now that my friends are seeing it multiple times, I think they are also picking up on the extra camraderie of the Fellowship's tallest fellows.
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Date: 2002-12-31 12:56 pm (UTC)Once for wrath and once for ruin, and something more.
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Date: 2003-01-01 04:48 pm (UTC)"Now for wrath, now for ruin and a red nightfall!"
And it's Éomer who says that, not Théoden, in Return of the King, during the battle before Gondor (Cormallen Field, I believe?).
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