ramble about the cd player

[threeplusfire]

I picked up this cd because Michael and Loren play it often in Metro, so it's forever associated with coffee and darkness and cards in my mind. Plus there is a song on here titled "Spite & Malice" with references to playing cards, and we play that game often enough for me to find it funny. I don't think I ever realized in Metro, because I never knew the titles of the songs.

And now I'm listening to "Special K" and wondering why the hell one would want to do take pet medicine. Awhile back there were a couple robberies of clinics and my mother was wondering why the hell they stole the euthasol in addition to the ketamine. Euthasol is used for euthanasias, for the record, and I can't imagine why the hell one would want to use that. I suppose one isn't overly concerned with impending death when one is desperate for a fix.

Which reminds me that Rolling Stone has a creepy article about crystal meth this month. (No, I never buy this magazine anymore, especially not with Justin Timberlake on the cover, it just shows up in our mailbox for some unholy reason) I knew a couple people in high school that did meth. It's absurdly easy to procure and make, and I'm surprised that it's not more of a problem than it is already. I mean god almighty the stuff eats your brain up. The chemical reaction, the physiological aspect of it is just unbelievable.

Gene's up. He cut his hair this week, short again, and in the mornings it is spiky, short mohawk like. He doesn't believe me when I say it looks good. But then again, he probably is still half asleep and when does he ever believe me anyhow?

You know, I never realized it was so easy to say.

I forgot this year. I forgot. And then I realized it doesn't come for another two days, and it just feel so strange. Because things happen sometimes and you think you will never get over that loss and that pain, and sometimes it isn't so bad and you have to wonder at yourself. Six years, and it feels like so much longer, and sometimes like it was only last week. But I'm not that girl anymore, and I'm not there, and it's okay.

I'll be okay today.

Comments

[thecursebreaker.livejournal.com]

You will be.

[smooch]

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I hope so. Because the alternative involves a lot of fire and explosions, and I'd probably get in trouble for that.

I do have the most amusing Weasley to torment, and that always makes life grand. ;)

[thecursebreaker.livejournal.com]

You have two to torment, as well as Petros.

[neflhim.livejournal.com]

It is not more of a problem because it is actually quite hard. Perhaps not complex, but very prone to exploding. Most meth labs are pretty far out in the wilds for just that reason.

Meth, while cooking, is unstable, and this causes explosions if you are not careful, and very good at your 'job'. These are the odd things you learn when your father is with the FBI.

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Well, to clarify, what I meant about making meth being so much easier is that it requires some fairly easily obtainable chemicals. The actual process sounds fairly horrific, to tell the truth.