la madeline

[threeplusfire]

Went out to lunch today with Karen, and then for coffee. We had a good time and talked a lot about all kinds of stuff. There was a time when I thought I wasn't ever going to be able to do that again. Maybe it's a side effect of growing up and realizing just how messed up I was, how messed up the situations were, and all the crap that happened in 2001. I feel like there's no point to holding on to any of that anymore.

Only one cigarette so far today. I am working my way down to around half a dozen a day. No more smoking in the mornings, I think. I'm not sure I'm ready to quit entirely, but I am trying to smoke less. I won't be able to wuit entirely until I get an exercise routine going, because I don't need to put on another twenty pounds.

Tsar Slate is meowing at me, so I must go pet the kitty before he jumps into the middle of my desk.

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[puella.livejournal.com]

congrats on cutting down the cigs!
On oprah on friday they had "inside the human body", and they showed a woman who said she need a wake-up call to quit smoking a normal lung and a smoker's lung. I'm sure you've seen the pics before and if you haven't, look them up on the internet. Picturing your black lung and associating it with a cigarette will surely help you to cut down or quit.
the good news is that the doctor said that after ten years smoke-free your lungs can heal back to a healthy state

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

I've seen lots of photos. At the time I started smoking it was entirely a self destructive impulse, so it didn't phase me much. My grandfather died from lung cancer after all.

I think a lot of the reason I didn't take well to advice was that most of it was passed off in a self righteous manner. I mean, yes I knew I was doing something very bad for me. It's got to be a change I make on my own though or it won't stick. I am cranky about such things I suppose and don't take well to lectures.

So it progresses. I think it will take a bit to stop smoking entirely, simply because Alan smokes a lot. I have to wait until he's ready to cut down as well, or we will just argue about it. That's okay though. We'll work on it over time.

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I'm not being cranky at you, in case it comes off that way. I appreciate people who have a much more low key and informative approach. I just realized my reply was a tad verbose.

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[puella.livejournal.com]

Nah, didn't come off as cranky.
I just can't resist giving a little encouragement when I see that someone is trying to quit.

[melyndabelinda.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you two had fun. And I'm very glad you two can hang out again. I wish I could have been there with you. Next weekend, if I come... Gene says he might be going to Houston next weekend so I don't know...

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Haha, you should just invade since you have the key! :P

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[melyndabelinda.livejournal.com]

Ooh! Good point. I wonder how he'd feel about that.

coffee

[feu-de-fripe.livejournal.com]

maybe we should work out together
we could buy a silly yoga tape or somethign and that way you would get up earlier before you go to work. i live by your work anyway. i wonder how julia would take us doing yoga in the living room.

i gues we could always join a gym, but my cheap husband is being cranky about spending that much money a month. ( i do love him he is just fun to pick on)

i am glad too. there was a time when i thought you would never stop hating me. i didn't want to talk to you because i was being stubborn too. "if she hates me so much then why the hell should i even try" then you came to my parties so that confused me even more. "i think she hates me, now i'm not sure"
then i would just get mad. "she shouldn't hate me so much hell i taught her to use fifth gear!"
ah well. i am happy i found those bugs at the garage sale and that i went to sam's party.
i remember why we liked each other to begin with, despite both our neuroses.

i know i know i should be being sappy in my own journal and not someone elses, but hey this way i can save the space in mine to post weird political things :)

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

That's a good idea. I found my silly Tae Bo tapes with Billy Blank. They are funny. I've never done yoga, but it seems like a good idea. It's something we could do at your place before I go to work, and then you don't need to worry about the fact that the all woman gym doesn't have childcare. ?!?! That still makes me sporfle.

I am glad too. Melynda bugged me a lot and made me come to the parties because she wanted everyone to be happy. I just wanted to throw my hands up in the air, but you know how stubborn Melynda is about anything. :P

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[melyndabelinda.livejournal.com]

I'm not stubborn! You both are obviously on drugs!

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

Jack thinks you are on the drugs! :P

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[melyndabelinda.livejournal.com]

Jack is no match for my wizards! Even if he is just as cute, or cuter. ;)

And did I mention I have another one now?

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[tsarina.livejournal.com]

My wizard can eat all your wizards!
And you got Hermione?