loss

[threeplusfire]

My other hand has started to hurt, and the pain inside my wrist grows. It's different from the left, though. More like the arthritis sort of pain I've experienced before.

I keep crying, because my worst nightmare has always been losing the use of my hands. It scares me. I remember reading that weird King novel Needful Things when I was young and being terrified by the woman with the crippled hands.

Nothing is right.

Time to go get another brace, a new keyboard and reset up my desk somewhere else for when I can write.

I need these hands. I can't do anything.

Everything is rainy and cold.

Comments

[geoectomy.livejournal.com]

I sympathize. The loss of my hands is one of my greatest fears also.

I suggest you get in touch with kate_cat, if you're feeling courageous enough. She was a massage therapist who has also lost the use of her hands... She said goodbye to her career at about the same time she said goodbye to an abusive relationship...

Given her body of knowledge and her own personal experience, she may be able to suggest some ways to help...